well other than the fact that my country has been frizzeled to death and the cops are now sending everyone (cept me of course) txt messages about how were all up shit creek...actually i cant think of a way to finish that sentence. i have complete apathy towards life at the moment. cant be bothered doing any school work (which i really should cos i have 4 tests on friday) and dont even think about drawing, i just dont really see the point anymore, the creative side of me died a horrible horrible death so i think ill just stick to things that im marginally good at. ie biology. so as i said b4 its actually raining properly here for the first time this year and one part of me is screaming to go and dance in it and the significantly larger part of me is going 'you cant dance your feet are too big, you have nowhere/noone to dance with, youll probs just get bored anyway and for the lov of god its newport youll probably just get raped and stabed.'

btw my friends mum has liver/bowel cancer and she is half completely stressed and half meh dont care. if your mind is anything like mine when ur reading ths ur screaming out SHES IN DENIAL... so emotional backboard for me.

one more btw.. im looking for a new name, u guys can still call me wat u call me, in fact i prefer that, but just generally a new name. i dont even think ive put my legal name up here.. well its lucy-worst name in da world. so yeah...